nurfaekah

(:

2007-07-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

ooo.
today was awesome..
insyaAllah,other days it wud be as awesome.(:
thank you Allah,seriously.
:)

and thanks syg.
u are everything to me.

love you deep2.
to my kwn fatin,miss you lar grrl grrl. :P

and to my friends,let's party baby!nehhh.better not.

anyways..
its gonna be 1mth me & him are tgd.
doesn't feel like one month.
here's a poem for you:

I awake each day with a smile
And greet it with a laugh;
The world is a treasure to me
Because of you.

Every time I think of something sad,
I replace the thought- with you!
My mind is instantly changed
And my heart is filled with gladness.

Every breath I take is meant for you,
I live this life surrounded in joy
And I bathe in the promise of your love,
My soul belongs to you.

Each time I see something beautiful
I want to take it and bring it to you;
My life has so much meaning now
All because of you.

gays are actually very nice people.
seriously.
i've encountered one today.
they are really nice.

(:

2007-07-15T17:00:00.000-07:00

tdy wud be a new experience for me.(:
WEE!
i hope that it'd be alright.
insya Allah, god bless.

yestd me & him had a talk.
i really love him.
dats y i fear.

cause my first ex and 2nd ex used to say they love me.
used to say i was beautiful.
but in the end, i found out my 1st ex still contacted his ex and
kenal2 with other girls.
my 2nd ex i found out in the end,
he was playing timer.

i've never said i love you to them face to face nor have i confessed that to them on the phone.

i'm not the kind of person who'd express myself that much.
no matter how strong i am,
i have to admit that love makes me weak.
i feel more emotions.

that is why i am scared.
cause this time round, i really love my current bf.
and i dare to say i love you to his face or on the phone.
my heart's just open to do so.

so i pray that God bless this current relationship that i & him have.
cause from the start, i knew that he's the one.
just that it's been a secret.

cause every girl wants to know that she is special.
and she wants to know what makes you love her most.

(:

2007-07-14T07:10:00.001-07:00

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
kuatkanlah kaki si dia.
berikanlah sedikit daripade semangatku..
kepada si dia.
berikanlah dia tenaga.
berikanlah dia kekuatan.
berkatilah diri si dia.
kerana dialah lelaki yang amat hamba mencintai.
kerana hatinye yang suci & murni.
syg, no matter wad happens.
i will be there for you.
cause of you, yourself & your heart.

to my friends, i pray that you are all blessed.
cause you guys are THE bomb. haha!
MUACKS!(:love yoos.

ever since i truly fell in love,
i've learnt how to love fully from my heart.
i've learnt that if it's time to go..
it's time to go.
i've learnt that giving isn't bad.
do everything from ur heart and soul.
believe in Allah/god and pray always.
for only he truly understands your whole soul.

i may have not been an excellent daughter/friend,
or should u say top scorer,
but i thank Allah so much for how far i've gone.
thank you Allah.
for letting me learn so much.

the past creates the future & the past lets us appreciates the future even more. no matter how painful the past maybe, i'm glad there's still the future.

let's make the world a better place, why fight when you can have peace?
no offence.

(:

2007-07-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

i want to cry.
im gg to cry.
cry myself to sleep.

if i could go for a heart donation,
i would go for a heart donation..
and leave this world.
i'd give it to someone else who needs it more than me.

):

2007-07-13T07:12:00.001-07:00

i don't feel good, really.
ARGH!

(:

2007-07-12T18:48:00.000-07:00

heyhey!
my gf,fatin & me.
we're gonna go tamp.
yes ar!
it's been a long time since i catched up with her.

school's okay.
haha.
work's okay.
but i'm not sure abt monday.
we shall c how.(;
insya Allah,everything will be fine.

to my bf,
i just wanna let you know.
i love you very much.
and that you're my prince charming.
i've had two failed relationships.
but this time round,
i'm gonna make sure
we make it.
no matter how busy i maybe,
i WILL be there for you.
i WILL love you,forever.
and i WILL syg syg u.
haha.
okays?
and YOU are my prince charming,
remember that.<3

yestd at work..
it was fun.
i got to talk with eileen.
she told me her experiences and her feelings.
it was a good bonding session.(:
i kinda love working with her,william and sharfa.
they are considered the best la ey.
haha.

wad else?
i rarely watch TV.
hahaha,usually hangout to relax my mind.
the greenery helps.
the creation of God.

okay..
am i promoting LIVE EARTH or wad?
HAHAHA.

(:

2007-07-12T08:25:00.000-07:00

Astaghfirullah..
in the name of Allah.

(:

2007-07-11T23:31:00.000-07:00

wee wee.
not funny.
haha! =P

anyhoos, school was okaylar eh.
haha. imitated alot of friends in sch.
cannot tahan la, must kacau my friends.
if not,cannot ar.
hehehe.
the teacher very cute lar.
and funny.
haha!

i love school.
ya Allah, insya Allah.
monday wud be good,
and i wont get scolded.
):
hope the work wud be g8.

thanks hunny for accompanying me.
people, i want archery!):
please please.
time,be with me.

ya Allah, bless me in my journey.
AMIIN.
love you GOD! wee!

(:

2007-07-11T08:43:00.000-07:00

wooo. went sky ride.
it was fun!
hahaha,with my darling hubby!(:
wee!hurhur.

my friends were awesome tdy.
xiujuan chased me in lecture theatre.
HAHA!:P
awesome.
okla,im tired. bleah!

wad is that i felt in my heart?
pain? over-feelingness?
what is it?
is it just my mind?
ooo,whatever faekah.

i've always thougth of this:
the past creates the future & the past
lets us appreciate the future.

i love the future,but..

2007-07-10T17:14:00.000-07:00

heylo people.(:

hurhur!
im in sch, cant wait to meet my hunny.
next week ill be damn busy.
so this week must enjoy.
gonna go sentosa.
WEE!(; yeah baby!hahah.

anyways.. wanted to initially watchharry potter this friday but plan was cancelled.
because i forgot lesson wud end at 8.30pm.
SHUCKS!):
hahaha.

hee.
yala,nthg else.
im just tired only lar.
tk bole thn,go hm only da blh tido.
so the penat.

i really hope nxt monday.
the "commencement" wud be alright.=D
haha.
nothing else lar.
i lazy la to type the other things that happened in my life.
tho im interesed in telling you all.
bleahs! HURHUR.

GOD BLESS!(:

2007-07-10T05:14:00.000-07:00

dear Allah,
please protect me.
show me the light.
prevent me from doing anything bad in my life.
i love my family & everyone.
i don't wish to disappoint anyone.

i don't wanna create sins.
please bless me along my journey.
give me a happy life.
make me successful.
don't let my syg, fadzil, leave me.
let my friends and me be friends forever.
let my family love me forever.

i'm satisfied with life but not pressure.
but insya Allah, YA ALLAH, give me the light.
prevent me from doing sins.
cause i want to be loved by you.

i hope making THAT decision wasnt a bad choice.
please bless me & i hope the people wont attitude with me.
please Ya Allah.
i love you.

and please forgive me from the sins i've done.
i'm sorry..

2007-07-09T16:21:00.000-07:00

yestd my bf & me went to orchard. best ar.
(:
hahaha, it was fun.
being with him has never been boring.

i hope the decision i just made isn't a bad choice &
that it would be blessed by GOD.(:
insya Allah,everything would be fine.
and that lynne would still consider me.

anyhoos, syg thx for your support.
i love you very much!

and..
my eyes are dead tired.
hahahaha.
knocking off.
ADIOS PEOPLE! (:

2007-07-08T16:14:00.001-07:00

i can't seem to put a title.
URGH.
HAHA.

anyhoos, i dyed my hair burgundy.
but right now,can't see lar.
needs time. =P

i was totally blessed.
thx Allah, you have just SAVED my life.
thank you loads!
seriously. (;

tdy im working, gonna mit my hunny b4 4pm.
YES AR! =)
so happy you know.
wee!

anyhoos, i still gotta go thru 2844.
oh gawd!
and 2848.
exciting life.

ive gotta make more sacrifices ald.
ive been entertaining my body.

now it's time to FIGHT my body.
anyhoos,thx ALLAH for everything.(:
and every1 for ur support.
esp my best friend cum bf, fadzil.
and besties,fatin,rajes&liza.
muax!

(:

2007-07-07T18:18:00.000-07:00

boohooo!i have to work tdy at 2.30pm.
tired you know.

urgh! so many deadlines, so many projects.
so many tests. just too many to do!

anyhoos, i woke up this morning.
was msging my bf.
he told me..
his leg cant move and
that he was at the hospital.

wahlao!
i panicked like crazy lor.
hahaha. who wouldn't?

syg, thanks for the "morning surprise" ey.
hahaha, aiyo very notty boy you know.

(:

2007-07-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

first and foremost, let's get things straight. i mean it STRAIGHT.

i'm not a lesbian. i have 3 bestfriends in school who happen to be GIRLS. haha!

and this is one of them. her name is liza:

i just love my best friends very much! :P

(:

2007-07-05T16:16:00.000-07:00

heylo everybody.(:

at times i just feel like a useless daughter you know.
i mean i partially blew yesterday's presentation.
it hurts la really.
you wanna live up to your daddy's expectations..
cause you know something abt your daddy.
your love for your daddy is super strong.
you wanna work hard & earn money..
not too disturb your dad's money.
wanna make him happy, lessen his burden.
because of love.

i don't have the heart to ask my dad for money.
i look at his face, there's love.
it's hard you know..
i'm unlike most, work but my parents dont give me extra bling bling.
i don't mind that seriously..
but please daddy.
don't say i dont knw how to budget.
im doing all that i can.

working hard, studying hard..
its stressful for me u know.
no time for my cca.
at times no time for God.

i wanna be the perfect daughter for you.
but my body tends to be weak at times.
i fall sick easily this year.
in the effort of making you the happiest daddy.
i love you SO much ayah.
and i want the best for you.
i wanna see you smile..
look at your daughter and say..
uve done well darling.

i want to make you proud.
cause i know no one lives forever..
i dont wish to know that phrase.
but we all cant run from it.

you are everything to my heart daddy.
i love you so much.
happy birthday dear daddy.

and please, my pay is not like a BOMB okay.
i earn just how much.

i work for just how many days.

HOW MUCH DO YOU EXPECT ME TO BUY?

im stress you know that.
im really really stress.

i really enjoy my life..
but im really really stress.
i keep it all inside.
if i wanna cry also..
i wont cry in front of anyone.

so please..
understand me.
really..

thanks friends&bf.
i love you, my family.
but please take a look at me.
at this condition/rate,
i might just collapse anytime.

(:

2007-07-04T23:46:00.001-07:00

hey hey you you,
i dekat dalam class.
haha.):

haiz,just feeling very down lar these few days.
pms maybe?

honestly, there are some things on my mind right now.
useless thoughts lar actually.
haha.

whtvlar..
im changing job lar.
guardian pays too little.
URGH!!
gst increase, pay nvr increase.
bapok seh.

anyhoos, the guys are so evil.
they say at work they get free food. can eat.
but den hor, for me, they said i can go eat medicine
for lunch time or whtv.
THANKS EH! ):
URGH!
HAHA!

(:

2007-07-04T07:41:00.001-07:00

this is the man that i love.(:

(:

2007-07-04T04:50:00.001-07:00

i am just really exhausted. oh gawd! i can die i tell you.
why am i so weak?
really, i hate it.
my body's so weak ley.
urgh! whtv it is, i must be strong.

i lack enough sleep la actually.
side effects.

but what to do?
i have things to get done.

thanks friends for always being there.(:
& thanks darling aka syg aka switheart for always being there.
i love you so much! MUACKS!

(:

2007-07-03T08:43:00.000-07:00

maybe i think a lil too much?
=/ err.
dont know lar.
haiz!
i better wake up, like seriously.

dear Allah,
help me please..

(:

2007-07-02T16:19:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah,my life so far has been pretty alright.
a few cliches here and there, but still managable.
just that i've got to get some things over and done with.
once projects and exams are like over,
then my mind would be able to think abt everything else..
like work.

i thank God cause so far, family, friends and my dear has been
the people who have been supporting me.
well, i have to admit it lar.
without them, i might be crippled in the sense that
i'll always be wounded.

btw, thank you syg for the beautiful dress, the chicken rice at kavanna,
the bubble tea and the neoprints.

i love all that you've done for me
and i hope that our love will continue grwing stronger.
insya Allah.

to my cca,
im sorry i couldn't be dedicated.
at least not for now.
too many things to think of.
i have to sacrifice at least one,
which is my cca.

cause right now,
priority goes more towards my job and school.
as much as i wish to put my mind on my cca, its hard cause
i have so many things to think of right now.

till then, i pray that insya Allah..
every decision i took, take and am gg to take
would be a decision blessed by God.
and that my journey would be safe, a happy and blessed one also.

right now, i just feel really blessed.

[=

2007-07-01T16:11:00.000-07:00

wow.. after my sickness, i learnt one thing.
i MUST consume 1l of mineral water everyday.
MUST okay.
urgh! ):

anyhoos, met my hunny just now after wrk.
he cooled me down.
i was so angry yestd.
i hate it when ppl push jobs to other people.
i feel like finding a better job.
because of one DEVIL, the entire shop is filled with rumours.
you suck la, a___ g____.
how can you do this to everyone in the outlet?
im gonna transfer.
cause now, i've really had enough.
you're really not changing.
im gonna transfer to serangoon.
hmph!
i dont give a toot abt anything that's gonna happen to anything or anyone in the outlet anymore.

i have a high level of patience, but this time round after 9 mths.
its time to say goodbye to the outlet.
im not gonna quit because of someone,
im just gonna transfer.

thats all.
btw, syg thx for cooling me dwn.
I LOVE YOU.

=|

2007-06-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

omg, the prices have ALL increased. gst rates of up to 7%.
im glad i did some household shopping earlier.
sheng siong will definitely gain profits.
like hello!
if the pay is like increased nvm sey.
this one pay also not increased lor.
whtv lor.
haha. -_-!haiz!

sadded lar.
btw, i tried this nive mask.
super awesome.
i took 6 packets of tester.
it's awesome lar.
cause my skin can be pretty dry.
so this helps to sort of moisturize it.
ooo, sedap.
feeling high. haha! :P

anyhoos, that's about it for now.
let's go johor everybody.
go giant! :D

):

2007-06-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

im really ill.
i think there's smthg wrong with my body.
aiyah, whtv lar.
haha, i just pray to God.
whtv happens to me..
continue blessing the ppl i love.
Amiin.
esp my family.
my friends.
and my hunny esp.

):

2007-06-29T08:31:00.000-07:00

my adik needs a personality makeover.

that's all i can say.
i'm SO pissed with him right now.

=]

2007-06-28T17:43:00.000-07:00

yestd at work, i was with the nenek.
erm,it was okay but she was complaining non stop.
typical lar, NENEK wad.
haha.
irritating,i just hate it lar.
u wanna work,just focus.
don't nag & nag.
if u wanna nag,can nag.
but just dont talk bad abt ppl, esp ppl working in the same line as u.
so horrible!
u dont have to like spoil ppls reputation.
be professional pls. u say u have EXPERIENCE,
but seems like you LACK more of it.
and you boast a lil too much.

anyhoos,enough of that.
no pt talking abt this kinda ppl.
yestd's paper was awesome in the sense that,
it was freaking tough.
haha! hopefully & insya Allah,
i won't disappoint my parents & bf.
i promised them ald.

before the test, i met up with the trio.
fatin, liza & rajes.
it was fun, outing with dem has never been booring.
it was actually first me, fatin & liza..
fatin gave me this SUPER shock.
suddenly she came to me jumping & shouting smthg.
haha! she was feeling hot.
and i was like screaming in shock.
WAHLAO & ppl were looking.
haha! but funny.
and den.. liza created her usual jokes.
but she's funny also.
rajes came in l8r.
i LOVE disturbing her, but i usually PAY the consequences.
in the sense that, she will give me her MOST powerful pinch
which can leave you with a massive blue black.
haha! you've got strength, girl! :P

yeah,that's all for now.
God bless! (:

thirsty!

2007-06-27T18:33:00.000-07:00

heylos!(:
yestd after work,my hunny fetched me back.
thx ey!haha.
super tired.

there's database test tdy. LUCKILY, it's at 4.30pm ar.
if not, i DIE!
-_-!
so many weird dreams lar lately.
it's like super gila!

gg to work after test tdy.
hehe, i wanna buy those things lar!
a lot u know.
household items.
if not, my house no things.
sian-ed!
hee.

oklar, i need more h2o.
thirsty!
and yeah, im SO elated!
my daddy bought for me the adidas watch i've been aiming for.
omg, I LOVE YOU DADDY!

u guys knw how much i've wanted that BLACK adidas watch.
WOO!
hee.

=]

2007-06-26T03:55:00.000-07:00

heyhey!
today i had rad test. prasan wanna wake up at 6.
in the end at abt 8+ i knocked off.
like WOW!HAHA.

big dreams, big sleeps.
yikes! im working tmr, sad case ar.
haiz!
TIRED YOU KNOW.

luckily, after the test,i got to meet my sweetheart.
before meeting up also he can play prank.
scared me by saying he was in front of the school
& i was like at the mrt ald.
and when i turned, he was right at the back.
THANK YOU LOADS LA EY!
hahaha.
-_-!
we went hg mall, walked ard & i as usual ATE.
this friday transformers.
yes ar!

bla bla bla.
gonna go hg mall with my fam after maghrib.
yippee!
but my eyes are like so tired.

i bought these 2 gorgeous earrings.
haha! match with my hairband.
daniel so bad sey..
teased me tdy!
and den tell aaron.
thanks hor.
hmph!haha!

oklar, time to siap.
adiosy! [=

=P

2007-06-25T10:12:00.000-07:00

oh, who's that guy? haha! =P

my MATA ( in english, eye) AIR (in english, water).

wow, so now i have eye-water aka MATAIR (in malay). -_-!

=]

2007-06-24T05:20:00.001-07:00

hahaha,post sikit.

nie pulak, post byk. :P hehe! cute banget.

i think this song is romantic.
hurhur! :P

my hunny will be away in ns for a week. aww!
miss you baby. -_-...

enjoy the pictures above.haha!just for the fun of it. ;P

i think this song my heart by irwanshah is very the touching..
got feeling lar when listen to this song.

but live not so good ar. hehehe. =D

okaylar,adious amigos.(:tired babe!

=]

2007-06-23T16:45:00.001-07:00

i'm so tired.
my manager asked me to wake up like so early.
open the shop, bank in alone, handle the big outlet alone.
she'll come at 11.
i suffer with $3 shortage while she's on her way.
this is so unfair.
i'm just tired of all these.

i have to be patient i guess.
tho i seem to be in a pretty pissed mood now..

argh!i wanna find a big field & just shout my guts out!

=]

2007-06-21T18:14:00.000-07:00

pretending to dig nose but cannot make it!:P haha!

me & fatin, my best friend!<3!

and these are.. my BEST FRIENDS in class. you guys ROCK!!

i went back to sch for extra class.
omg, i miss my classmates!
i love dem SOOO much!
we had so much fun. hehehe.
there was one attack.
we ran after FATIN & tickled her like man.
well, people, this is called love between girlfriends.
really had lots of fun.
<3! no joke, no fun.
these friends of mine made me understood this.

funny pictures to share =P

2007-06-18T18:27:00.001-07:00

survivors will be shot again. wow, not a bad idea.

i am ready to fight for our country. yes,sir!

if only maths was THAT simple.

run forest run :P

hey! some of you MAY have noticed. yes,i'm attached.
to my bestie (has been supporting me since sec 2).
he knows SO MUCH abt me.
well. actually GOD did ans my prayers.
he has been in front of my eyes..
but i failed to see it.
since the mmt i prayed,
God made HIM my friend.
but i failed to see it.
but now, destiny has brought us tgd.

he's in camp right now.
i hope you're safe darling!

okays,my best friends,
RAJES LIZA & FATIN.
where are you?
I MISS YOU GUYS!

=DAWW!

[=

2007-06-17T23:53:00.001-07:00

heyheys!

all the lovely people out there.
how you guys doing?

me?
don't worry,i'm fine.
just tahan-ing the stupid stabbings on my tummy.
so sedap i tell you. -_-
haha, for 4 days straight.
imagine lar.
wueks! )': want to nangis you know not.
haha.

btw, i heard avril's voice live.
erm, i have no comments.. :P

nelly furtado's voice not bad ar.
a fan of hers and evanescence.
natural voices.
woo!

okaylar.
guess wad?
i wanna watch NANCY DREW, SURF'S UP & TRANSFORMERS!

WUARGH!
hahaha.
i'm into movies.
btw, go cathay on weekdays cheap leys.
$6.50.. not cheap la. but can be considered pretty alright
if u were to compare it with GV & etc.

okay, i better zip up now :P
enjoy the music people!
;D

=]

2007-06-17T01:42:00.000-07:00

dear God,
please heal me from this illness.
my stomach feels like it is being stabbed.
forgive me for my sins.
forgive me for all the wrong things i did.
u've opened my eyes.
gave me true friends.
gave me THE SUN. :P
i thank you for these blessings.

but i would like to ask for your forgiveness
for i'm gonna view life in a different perspective.
please heal me.
please forgive me.
and please give me the confidence i need.

i wanna thank my family for being there also.
i love every individual who has made my life worthwhile.
you are all really gorgeous people.
<3

[=

2007-06-16T07:51:00.001-07:00

my body's not in a good state right now.

[=

2007-06-15T17:57:00.000-07:00

im gg to the clinic later.
my tummy has just undergone a massive turbulance.
every hour,i head to the toilet,
as tho it was my 2nd home.
hahaha.

pain in the toot sey.
and weird thing:
i dont knw WHAT caused it to be that way.
zzz!

yestd i watched fantastic four.
alamak,they should change the storyline ar.
but still,the movie was alright.
haha,still got some points in it.
thanks "fader" for belanja-ing.
hahah.

i think i better bath now.
im gonna go to the doc with my mommy
& settle this tummy issue.
):
*groans*

take care people.
<3

[=

2007-06-14T18:25:00.000-07:00

after all my efforts,
my body is currently facing the consequences..
it's aching ALL OVER!
somebody plsplspls massage me.
it's damn painful,
like my whole body just got beaten up by gangsters.
hahaha.
ey,seriouslylar,it hurts like mad.):!

okaylar.. someone told me smthg a few days back.
my response would just be this:
take a mirror&look at urself.
ur not gorgeous.
u have your weaknesses.
please do some reviewing of your entire image&soul.
basket lor. [=

anyhoos,my place's gonna rain.
i'm gonna watch rise of the silver surfer at 3.30pm today.
too bad nash,i'm gonna watch it with someone else.
ur too slow.

okays,i'm having 2 wks break.
time's moving like crap,
i'm gonna be left with 1 wk break.
which is MORE crap.
haha!

okays,i think i shall stop here.
toodles!(;

[=

2007-06-13T18:15:00.000-07:00

i learnt three very important things today:

1) what goes around,comes around.

2) if someone is meant for you,he'll always be yours.

3) sometimes,what you've been looking for,is right in front of your eyes but you gotta look closer.

(:

2007-06-12T08:21:00.000-07:00

i & my girlfriends met up at rajes's house.
it was fun.
laughed here&dere.
[= i'm just blessed to have them lar.

anyhoos,fantastic four.
yay yay!hahah.=D
gua tak sabar,
wanna watch that show.

i've gt sch tmr.
extra class ar to be precise.
super sedih seh.
i'm like just very the penat ar now..
serious.

(;

2007-06-11T16:47:00.001-07:00

hi people.
i was having random thoughts just now.
i assume i'm gonna have a black bike when im 20.
but my friend told me:
THINK TWICE.

im gonna wear all black with a black bike
in the black atmosphere(night).
SOOO.
the risk of getting injured is like 99.9999999999%.
but it's like so much fun to ride in the dark.
so HOT.
haha!

and since i'm single,
why not la kan?
lead my own life.
go to work,go to school,
meet friends,study.
woo! but..

if i'm attached also oklar.
if the guy wanna tumpang me..
it wud be nice lar.

but then agn,
will i be attached agn?
haha!
whtv!

oklar..
im off to bed.
take care everyone. (:

[=

2007-06-11T07:24:00.001-07:00

my bestfriend gave me perfume for my bdae.
hahaha,thank you bestie! [=

today i got free samples from my workplace.
gonna give some to my friends tmr.
(:love ya'll!

my friend showed me a tip on how to gain while working.
i think it's a good idea,i should follow.
=]

btw,i watched ZOMBIE.
haha,damn funny.
and i catched MEN IN WHITE.
damn funny!!
:) you guys should catch it.

oklar,im just very happy.
thank you.tatas!

=]

2007-06-10T18:01:00.001-07:00

holyness.
time seems to be moving pretty fast tdy.
btw,nash,u reply like speeding train eh.
haha.

okays,whtv.
i hope tdy would be just like yestd,
problem free.
work with no interferences.
no gatalness.
no miyang-ness.

URGH!just hate those types of girls.
whtv agn.
okaylar.
till i see you people agn.
adiousy!take care![=

if you can't lead,don't lead.
if you can take on the role,then take on the role.
don't be overconfident.
a strong word of advice here.

[=

2007-06-09T17:42:00.000-07:00

i'm a big ardent fan of evanescence. <3
her songs make you feel so much emotions.
anger,sadness,happiness..
all combined into one.
gorgeous!(:

okaylar,how's my life you might ask?
not so fine,but because my greatest allies are here.
i'm truly happy.
i wanna thank my best friend,fadzil,for always listening to me grumble.

btw,y___ thinks i'm stupid.
he said that he wanted us to stead.
i said.. let me think abt it.
and yestd,he msged saying dat he went out forget to bring his hp.
well.. that's it.
who the toot goes out from morning till night..
and forget to bring hp.
i'm not dumb.
so,he's out of the list.
as in chances of being bf.
he's out.

i'm not jumping into conclusions.
after having 2 exes,i've seen quite a lot.
sooo,precautionary measures are a must.

okays,anyways..
i'm off to work.
adious people!

(:

2007-06-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

you.. black my fav colour ar you.
haha.
still tensed.
like totally basket lar.
serious!
i just hate all that's been happening with sch right now.
projects & whtv, piling lyk crazy.
-_- certain lecturers, i must say, have taught well enough.
tho a few's like SOSO, average kinda thing.

okaylar, as usual, nuggets and choc ice blended with pearls.
it's a must have on my list whenever i'm school.
so delicious&tempting seyyy!
gua tak blh angkat.
gua pon tak blh letak.
haha! -_-

yeahhh. friends have been utmost support.
love them to bits!
family alright la eyyy.

just think that my life hasn't been lived fully yet.
work, school..
yea?
but it isn't fully lived YET.

i still have ONE more goal to reach.
[= that's to join _______________.
and i will MAKE SURE i get smth.
i promise you,daddy aka ayah.

okaylar, today tickled my gfs and had some fun.
but i still wished i was a GUY.
it's like all guy friends of urs and u..
and go cycling, bowling.
just ENJOY!!
so syiok, take photos here&dere.
very syiok.
especially when all for one,
one for all..
cycle together,study tgd.. everything also tgd.
wudnt it be nice?

bf? dont know..
nothing to say.
hahaha, but i just wanna enjoy ar.
take a bike ride.
wear black helmet.
just chill,take the breeze.
and just feel nature.
zoooooom, lyk very gerek seh.

of course not forgetting God lar kan.
but just that i wanna enjoy life to the fullest before 25..
what i've done now is not enough la eh.

so.. need to review my life more.
right now.. my life is like on a halt button whereby my mind is polluted by thoughts.
too many, too jammed.

insya Allah, by tmr.
everything will be fined, settled and planned. (:

adiosy!
TAKE CARE PEOPLE!

[=

2007-06-07T06:56:00.000-07:00

heyhey!
the test,one went well.
presentation,i have no comments!
seriously.

but luckily there's another retest on one of the test i took.
i will work harder for that one. [=

okays.
whtv!today morning, got this pervert sat beside me in the bus.
dont even ask.
AHA!

i became as sarcastic as i could ever be.
=P
too bad.

okaylar,im disappointed with one of the test.
but no, i won't give up..
:)

(:

2007-06-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

it's 12.12pm. (:
i have two more tests to go, networking & bruteforce. ):
i also have entre presentation tmr.

=] i have sucha great life.
g8ful that i'm not working this week.
too much stress ald!
accumulating like no one's business.

u wanna take it cool but it's susah ley.
haha!
whtvlar!
after tmr afternn,i think i wanna go bowling with my friends.
just have some time out.
ease my mind.

fantastic four's coming up on 14th june.
anyone? haha!
so far, shrek 3, pirates of the carribean are thumbs up!
LOVE THE SHOW.
watched with my family. it's very good! totally funny.

if life was like a fairytale la eh.
but fact is,it's not. =]

yay. gonna work agn soon. i'm so elated,NOT!
whtv. i just need some enjoyment.
URGENT.
=P

:)

2007-06-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

dearest Allah,

please..if u were to let me fall in love again.dont give me someone who'd hurt me.just someone to love,pamper&support me.i just need that.

i found out the truth abt my ex.HOW DARE HE ASK FOR MY HAND AGAIN.. WHEN HE'S ATTACHED WITH SOMEONE NEW? HOW DARE HE MAKES STUPID LIES?

i think your current gf & you also cannot last long lar,huh.

Ya Allah,forgive him.
forgive me.
just bless me with someone better.
i don't wanna be hurt again by unimportant things.

well, think i'd be making slight changes to myself.
i'm gonna tie my hair.
not bothered la,go to school to study.
unless if im gg out or dating,then i'll let my hair go.

wish me luck people!
this week got tests.
zillions of them.
haha.

thank you Allah.

2007-06-05T05:05:00.000-07:00

thank you Allah!
thank you so much.
for blessing me with a family.
for blessing me with best friends.

i just feel like crying..
tho my love life isn't good.
i feel so thankful for ALL the friends i have.
for the beautiful family i have.

thank you FATIN, RAJES,LIZA, XIU JUAN, ANNA, RABIAH, MEI TONG, MUZ & ZACK..
for the most beautiful birthday gifts and the cake.

i had to make a wish and my wish was for all of us to be best friends forever.

thank you for my family..

for having a father who's talkative but lovable.
a brother who's irritating but kind.
a mother who nags but very caring.

and as for my family,when i blew the candle i wished that all of us in the family would continue being loving.

i just want happiness.
and for remembering my birthday...

i truly will remember this day forever.
i really, truly feel very grateful.

i feel like crying.
my grandma remembered..
my aunt remembered..
u cant imagine how happy i am.

this year is the best!
my birthdays have been VERY sad the past years..
but this year..
I REALLY TRULY FEEL HAPPY!!

thank you everyone for remembering..
may God bless you all forever!!

I LOVE YOU ALL!!
MUAX!!

=]

2007-06-03T06:08:00.000-07:00

hello people.
nur faekah has decided to stop blogging for the time being,
as she has lost her inspiration to write.

anything just tag her board.(:
and she will reply to you asap.
thank you dear readers!

<3 GOD BLESS!

(:

2007-06-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

guys..
their hobby is to just come & go.
they catch your attention.
after they do that,
they just disappear just like that.

ps: my msn messenger is spoilt.
dang!ahah!
i wanna chat lar.

alla,leceh la like dis.
yay! im gg sentosa tmr.
my family's celebrating my bdae in advance.
haha!

(:

2007-06-01T10:06:00.000-07:00

im sorry if this blog is not gonna be written in an international language. but in a ROJAK language instead. i just wanna express myself to God. if you're interested you could read up(:

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..

ampunilah dosa dosa hamba.. kadang kale mulut hambe nie mengikut perasaan.. elakkanlah diriku daripade mengatakan perkataan yg tidak begitu indah.. kerana kadang kale.. saye sedih Ya Allah.. tetapi..

sejak kesakitan hamba, hamba telah sedari dosa2 hamba. terima kasih ya Allah..
terima kasih kerane keluarge yg hamba teramatlah sayang.. tanpa ibu saye... saye bukan ape2.tanpe ayah saya.. saye bukan ape2.. mereka telah membesarkan hambe. sungguh zalimnya diriku apebila terasa bagaikan hendak membunuh diri tanpa memikirkan kesusahan yg mungkin dilalui oleh mereka semasa membesarkan hambe... ampunilah hamba kerana ibu bapa hambe segalanye.. merekalah buah hati saye.. biar saye yg susah.. bukan mereka..

terima kasih kerana kawan2 hambe skrg.. i really love my kawan2... fatin.. liza... rajes... fadzill... all my best friends la in short.. my classmates.. really everything to me ar Ya Allah... Alhamdulillah..

terima kasih kerana telah memberi hambe keje part time...
terima kasih kerane telah membesarkan hambe...

ampunilah dosa2 hamba...
namun kabulkanlah doa hamba yg ini...
berikanlah hamba jodoh yg soleh rajin dan pandai agar dia amat menyayangi hambe dan hambe amat menyayanginye... hati hamba ini....

dipatahkan dua kali.. dan tidak ingin diriku lalui kesedihan ini lagi.. sembuhkanlah hatiku ini...

mulai esok..
hidupku akan bertukar..
Ya Allah jadilah kekuatanku...
berikanlah hambe semangat...
kuatkanlah imanku..
dan sucikanlah hatiku ini..
dengan penuh kasih sayang..
saling bermaafan..
dan sentiase redha....
Amiiin..

gallery - mario vasquez

2007-06-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

if u play the song in my blogspot, u'd notice the song is gallery by mario vasquez.
(:
here's the lyrics. someone sing to me this song please.(:

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your loves closed
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

(:

2007-05-31T07:34:00.001-07:00

look @ me. and tell me what do you see.
listen 2 my words. tell me what do you hear.

i wanna speak.
but my heart disallows.
is it because i'm having pms
or is it because
i've lost myself?

whatever.
faekah,it's time to make over!
it's time to start your life with a new note.

(:

2007-05-30T08:14:00.000-07:00

i am in a state where my body is shutting down.
my mind is collapsing.
my heart is just breaking..

depression has taken it's toll.
i USED to be a strong girl.

i LOVE to laugh.
i LOVE to smile.

but why can't i control this sadness and stress?

they say that HAPPY people are usually the saddest in the heart..
it's true.
really.

and right now,im having fever.
great(:

:|

2007-05-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

haiz..
im just stressed.
so many projects.
so many tests.

i cannot take this.
i don't know lar.

i want to find an empty field..
and just scream my heart out.
this is too much for me to handle.

upset la babe.
i feel like crying.
God knows..

):

2007-05-28T18:59:00.000-07:00

i'm really upset by that "marketplace" game.
so demoralizing.
dear God,
show me some light please.

it's been AWFULLY hectic these past few days.
with work + sch.
it's really pathetic.
i work for a reason.
personal reason lar.
it's just that lfie may seem unfair at times.

but still,
i have yet to thank Allah.
for most of the blessings that i have been given.
sometimes,i just wished i was rich so i did not have to work.
so that i can just focus on sch and dats all.
but it's not as it seems.

i'm really lucky to have a home.
to have a family.
to have most of the things that i want.
but as i grow older i begin to realize..

in order to survive,
i need to inject more HARD WORK.

right now,i'm not in such a position.
i thought poly life would be fine,
but competition everywhere.
from other classes.
from your class.
it's just hard to survive lar.

but whatever it is,
i pray to Allah my life's path would be stable
and still maintained.
AMIIN.

please don't break me..
give me the strength to undergo life, dearest Allah.

):

2007-05-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

can't believe this.
i have NINE subjects.
wonder how.
tdy i went shopping with fatin.
2 tank tops at 8 bucks each from
lp zone.
to match with my jacket.
hahakz.
:p

err.
i dont know lar.
nowadays,im seeing couples everywhere.
i will always recall my old times.
i really hope one day the one for me comes.
whoever he is..

whateverlar.
so many tests.
so many projects.
but SOO little time.
Astaghfirullah.

:P

2007-05-26T09:32:00.000-07:00

hahah,rajes's birthday party was a GREAT success.:D
omg,serious.
the songs were great
& the food was nice.

dancing was even fun.
we danced all night from 10pm.
ive never let go of my inner desire to dance.
and when i got the dance,
it was a relief.
(:
im happy with my classmates.
xiujuan,fatin,anna,meitong,rajes,zack&daniel.
they were all there.
so happy!

and when i got home,
my mother gave me a watch for my birthday gift.
it's beautiful mommy.
really beautiful
& i love it.
thank you.
muacks! i really love you.

oooh.one of my friend
wants to belanja me movie
& give me a ring for my birthday.
no,im single & no boyfriend yet.
but i hope one day ill fall in love again..
but with the right man.
i wanna know how its like to be loved
by someone who loves you with all his heart..
im not young anymore.
its time to look for mr right while studying.(:
insya Allah,God will bless me with the one.

my birthday has never been that wonderful..
people usually forget my birthday...
wishing me happy bdae in advance.
but this year im happy.
people are actually remembering...
it touches my soul.
really.
i dont ask for much..
but to just be remembered..
that's faekah.

2007-05-25T22:31:00.000-07:00

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

(:

2007-05-25T07:23:00.001-07:00

finally,technopeneurship and c++ are settled.
a BIG sigh of relief.
PHEW!!

anyhoos right,
rajes is having a party at a certain club located
near farrer park mrt station.
its not the mat and minahs type of club for your info.
im NOT a minah & nvr will be.
just that this is a ballroom kinda thing.
hee.
party starts at 7pm.
GREAT!):

NOT!!
there'll be great music.
but you know what.
she sabo-ed me & some of my friends to dance.
AHHA!
I DONT KNOW HOW TO DANCE PEOPLE!

howhowhow?
they say revenge is sweet.
im gonna sabo rajes too.

BLEAH!
HAHA!

you ar,bad girl.
you know i can't dance. )':

btw, seriously i hope you have a great birthday tmr okay?
;)

(:

2007-05-24T09:36:00.000-07:00

great,my msn messenger is spoilt.hooray.
haha,not.TEST!!
omg,why must have test?
to make it worse,
sch ends at 9.30am seh besok.):

angry + sad + no life.

just came back from work.
haha.

btw,nash,u sure u wanna accompany tmr ke?
the party is tmr?u SURE u wanna go?
haha!

(:

2007-05-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

im so tired.
hahakz,but i dont care!
i love God,my family&friends..
to the core!
you all ALWAYS make me happy.
sayang yoos.
haha!

anyhoos,tdy's sch&work was fine.
i just need time lar.

i tell you,time is HOT.
time is the most sexiest.
you know why..
EVERYONE IS CHASING TIME!!

haha.
bottomline is:time is precious.

(:

2007-05-21T08:08:00.000-07:00

i just got back from orchard.
it was nice, with my best friend fatin.
we drank frappucino with the whip cream.
super sedap!
my bdae coming ley.
dearest friends,you guys know what to do right?
;D

speaking of birthdays,
rajes is holding a party on the 26th.
can't wait!
i wanna enjoy myself.
no drinking n all lar.
but i wanna enjoy the atmosphere.

like how i enjoyed with my best friend,fatin.(;
if only i had a guy who's just like a best friend.
itll be like so fun!
):
but too bad.
no fate yet.

ANYHOOS!!
time to redefine my time.
i need to

organize.

(:

2007-05-20T08:41:00.001-07:00

im not happy.
cannot stick to one plan is it?
keep changing and changing.
whtvlar,nonsense.
u want a plan?
stick to it.
change here la change there la.

okay,skip that.
today's work was g8.
haha,at work this customer asked me:
"rhewhp krwgtjwh tkhwkht ghwiht?"
and u know what it was phillipines.
haha,and i was like err,i dont undstd ley.
HAH!funny funny.

2nd thing,i was gg to the toilet
suddenly this young boy aged 2 was running & laughing
den he said to me "mama"..
which means mother,just in case some bodohs dont know.
haha.
den i laughed la. do i look like a mother to you?
dont ans!
haha.
and the father was like looking at the son.
with the ERR face.
haha!

last but not least,
rajes..
its gonna be 12am.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!

may God bless you.
may you get a lovely husband.
may you do well.
may you have good health.
may your life be filled with much happiness..
as of today.

i love you friendzy,rajeswari.
<3<3<3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

:)

2007-05-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

im so touched.
i should do more..

my grandparents.
Alhamdulillah.they have changed.
when i was sick,my grandpa came all the way.

its time for me to do the same.
):

i wanna spread more love to the ones i love.
i think ill visit my grandparents on mondays..
i miss them.

and i think my family..
ill just have to do more.
pizza hut per month?
erm,sacrifice lar.
cause i love them so much.
<3

i love my family.
i love God esp cause he gave me them.
he gave me good friends.
& he gave me a life.

:)

2007-05-19T00:53:00.000-07:00

woohoo!
i WAS supposed to go out with my brother & his friend,
KEVIN LIM,
today but change of plans.

yaaa.my father wanted us to go out as a family to west mall
BUT my brother cudnt go so change of plans.
ARGH!hahakz.
but nvm,take care brother!

btw,i really wanna catch
28 days later.
but im on a VERY tight budget.
SIGH!):

nevermind,next time then.
next time = VCD.
have to wait i reckon.
AGAIN.
hahakz.

okaylah other than that,
let's just say tmr's gonna be a busy day.
and ps:
now i know how yahoo makes profits.
not a bad idea.
innovative!

oklar,ive gotta go.
tdy's a rest day for me.
if not,i cud've gone out.
but still,you must have cash.
then at least when you go out,
you feel its worth it.
cause u get to enjoy entertainment.

oh wells!nvm!
hahakz!

(:

2007-05-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

heylo. some people think that im fussy when choosing a guy.
well,i'll tell you straight from my heart what kind of guy i like.
im not asking for a perfect bf cause im not perfect.
i just need these criterias.

the top ten things/factors:
1)he must be sincere.in his words,when confessing his love towards me and whatever he does for me,he does it from his heart.
2)loyal.i'm a loyal person so i need a loyal person to care for me & love me.someone to inspire me..to tell me that he will always love and support me.
3)loves his family as much as he loves me.treats me like his other half.laugh with me,listen to my sadness&share with me everything he feels.
4)has a goal to reach.but BOTH of us work hard together to achieve the particular goals we each have individually.just support..
5)romantic&"manja".knows how to joke&have fun.go cycling together,just enjoy the world together.
6)busy but knows how to balance time for girlfriend and for work.i can do it,so he has to be able to do it.anything can be done but you gotta put in effort.
7)mature.judge based on fairness of the situation.tries to maintain the relationship by speaking in a mature way.
8)he must be direct&honest.tell me what he likes,dislikes.just frank lar.
9)some looks.im not asking for david beckham or whtv,just want a guy who seems attractive my eyes&heart..so that i wont get bored.instead,ill continue loving..
10)understands my soul..

there.nothing much to ask for.
this is what every girl wants.
i am someone who doesn't play with hearts.
and i need a guy who doesn't play with hearts too.

:)

2007-05-16T09:46:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.
:)

yes..it's sad to know the truth.
that my heart was a tool to be played with.
tho im so hurt,
i pray that my sins wld be forgiven.

time to turn over a new leaf.
my dad approached me and told me just now:
if a guy truly loves you,
he'll respect your words.
love you for who you are.
and will not hurt your feelings.

he told me i was facing blind love.
but next time,i'll tell myself to be more serious when it comes to liking someone.
boundaries will be set.
just that right now..

i have to insaf&bertaubat.
i just wanna say to Allah thanks for letting me face this saddest part of my life.

cause perhaps..
this would be a new beginning.
or a new chapter to the rest of my entire life.
insya Allah,conditions will change.

=O

2007-05-15T14:12:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!

i trusted you.
& find out that you've been lying to me
in the end.

I HATE YOU!!
don't even bother msging me anymore.
cause you're not gonna present a chapter of it any longer.

(:

2007-05-14T16:34:00.000-07:00

erm,recently BOTH my exes contacted me.
i dont know why.
after sucha LONG time.
is it a hobby or what?
i will ALWAYS forgive but nvr will i forget what has happened.

im NOT a GOD to not forgive.
so,let bygone be bygone.
but nope,i will never go on a relationship with someone whom i've broken up with.
friends?yes.but more than that?
wait for like a zillion years.

anyways,GOOD MORNING!!
it's raining&i totally love the weather.
i suddenly realized why i kept falling ill.
my faith to God ceased little by little as days go by.
why?
due to this hectic lifestyle that i have.):

terrible!
wanna spend some QUALITY time with God but
hinderances everywhere.

i've got 3 tests coming up.
SO SCARED!
but whtv this is life.
i chose this course&
i chose this life.
so i shld and am gonna stop complaining.

but i have to say this shoutout:

I TOTALLY DISLIKE BEING IN YEAR 2.

and guess what,advice from the seniors:
WAIT TILL YOU REACH YEAR 3.

wow,great words to hear in this condition.
HAHA!

okayla,faekah signing off.
(:

(;

2007-05-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

:)someone asked me to be his steady tdy.
hahakz!
he's not a malay,
but i dont mind.
BUT NOOO.IM NOT ATTACHED!
i dont really want a malay guy
for certain reasons.

ive had two exes.
both malays.
sad story.
really.

but whtv it is,i dont really believe what guys say when
it comes to love.

cause ive been shattered more den enough.

ps: work was fun.except for that little drama.

=O

2007-05-12T03:52:00.000-07:00

my dearest friend,
ZAKI,

has always been dere for me.
when i broke up.
when i lost hope.
& when my world was turning ard.
thank you very much.

you rock!
aka BATUS!

(:

2007-05-11T09:31:00.000-07:00

great lor,i cant change the blogskin.
damn good lor.HAHA!
-_-!

btw,it's time to redeem myself.
i have to wake up.
it's now 12.30am.
we have 24 hrs a day,gotta make full use of it.
im so awkwardly tired.
seriously lar.
im SO tired!

no time to do certain things also.
busy busy busy.
it's good lar that i have no boyfriend right now.
at least i wont MISS the guy or whtv.
i can have freedom& all.
wanna date or whtv.
but for now, just outings &getting to know people only lar.

cause im sick & tired already la of relationship,everytime smthg happens one.
especially to loyal ones.
sickening,seriously.
den ull miss that blardy person&all.

whatever.
just be single,enjoy& have lotsa friends!
way to go!

if have fate,have lor.
if not,no lor.
relax man!
hahaha.

okaylar,im just tired lar.
i need to yoga-ise myself.
err.yoga-ise?
heh!

FCUK YOO.

2007-05-11T01:25:00.000-07:00

RACISTS

& PEMBODEKS

= I HATE YOU ALL!!

& I MEAN IT.

:|

2007-05-10T10:00:00.000-07:00

wow,i've been dead busy.):

seriously,no time lar for anything else except sms,msn&blabla.
no entertainment yet.WOO!:

okay whtv.

-projects
-tests
-work
-cca

it just continues pilling.life isn't so simple afterall.
i pray so hard that i get a bf who's just like busy but still need love and will show love,just like me.

afterall,i am human.i'm not desperate.i just need something to know how i feel and tell me dat everything'll be fine.somebody to hug me&kiss me when i cry.

i guess that will never happen cause i always get egoistic guys.when emo,i get the damn emo ones.and when ego,i get the damn ego one.

urgh!!

btw the sight at the canteen was fantastic.
there was this malay+eurasian looking mixed guy.
not exactly body builder or whatever.
hot or whtv.

but the face depicts a guy with modesty.
the eyes are everything lar.
i hope i get somebody who's just like dat the face,the face of modesty.
the heart of humbleness.

(:

2007-05-09T17:00:00.000-07:00

whatever it is, just be thankful of what you have.

cause life is too short to think of problems all the time.

=O

2007-05-09T08:56:00.000-07:00

haha.tdy was like a basket day.
i felt blessed today.
but sadness equalized everything.

maybe i wanna say goodbye to ____.
the people,the way work is done & all.
i dont know lar.
there are reasons why certain things happen lar.
just gotta accept it.

next,i was at the mrt station.
this young sec sch kid,needed money badly.
he had to take MRT or bus or whtv to see his grandmum at the hospital.
so i tot nevermind 2 dollars.
but it was like burning my pocket la kan.
haha!
but whtv it is,it's just horrible la when i heard the next phrase.
he said..

"i wanna be a girl.. can or cannot?"
"i must cut my dick right?"

OH &*(&(*#!!

HAHA,but memorable experience la i must say la kan.
=P

ahh,end of story just that i feel so low but yet so high at the same time.
am i crazy? ahaha,partially i guess.

):

2007-05-08T07:57:00.001-07:00

): my 1st ex JUST contacted me. he called.
no mood to talk lar kan. seriously lar,i've lost mood.
so whtv!
u've got a girl so just move on.
i dont see the necessity to actually communicate with you.
we are over & done with. being friends also no point lar kan.

i hope my JUST BROKE UP ex doesnt contact as well.
if it's over it's over. don't contact me to tell me you have a new gf.
i dont do THAT to you guys so don't do it to me lar please la eh.

aiyooo.

anyhooos, projects lar. exams lar.
ill turn into a ZOMBIE soon.

):

burgundy! burgundy! burgundy!
ps:recently,i've just gotten into a huge appetite.whoops!

must be due to stress i assume.

(:

2007-05-07T08:26:00.000-07:00

tdy was an awfully tiring day for me.):seriously.

first i headed for work.which was FUN,cause it started lyk @ abt 10am?
so kinda alright.my manager had her hand in BURGUNDY.
which was SO hot i tell you.

i nak colour tu ar yoo.(:
somebody buy for me that pwease..
HEHE! :P

it's sucha HAWT colour.
but whtv,it was FUN.
and guess wad,after the meeting,
we all ate this mee maggee thing.
followed by DRINKS.
yummylicious!!;D
sedap beb.
all of us just ganging up&eating.
memorable banget!

(:im so glad i have the friends that i have right now.
i love you all like crazy!
someone kenal2 with me @ work tdy.
okla,quite cute but too formal &zombie like.
he was like "hey.not working today ar?"

den i said.. err.not at square2 tdy lar.im at ____ tdy.working dere tdy.
& he went like..
"ooo,okay."
ZOMBIE!
haha.

no chemistry la dey!
gotta do more.

life's unpredictable.it's hard to assume or guess
who's the world especially nwadays.
so i reckon dat i shld tell myself to just
GO WITH THE FLOW.

i have TONS of &$*(#^$( homework.
u totally can't imagine how elated i am.
*sarcastic smile*
hahaha.

okaylar,take care people!
& Allah/god bless all of you forever.
:)TATA!

(:

2007-05-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

hehe.i JUST got back from work.
&&boy,im dead tired.
i got FREE durians,which was like worth $10.00 & above?
ain't i lucky?
HAHA.

however,there WAS retribution.
what goes ard comes ard.
u gain & u loose.
fcuk!
i have to pay like $29.oo for that stupid cheater.
she paid like $29.oo which i THOUGHT was like..
BRUNEI money.
turns out to be MALAYSIAN instead.
i know lar i bodoh,but freak!!=D
im smilling.
ARGH!!
nvm,just believe that i PAID for the durians.
like whtv larr.

so,now believe it or not..
im on a TIGHT budget.
so..
unless if you plan on belanja-ing me,
den ill go out.
if not,u can kiss going out a goodbye on the ass.

pissed.
&& i had a weird dream.
smthg that revealed my life to a more DECENT scene.
but the story's TOO long & dramatic..
so i'll just skip this. -______-"'!!

(:

2007-05-05T02:51:00.000-07:00

err. hello slenghers! slenghers in malay means smart. serious,no joke sey.

haha.

anyhoos,went out with daniel,rajes&zack tdy.damn funny.
i loved the show spidey 3.
green goblin was lyk effing HOT!!
tak blh tahan.wanna kiss him like dat seh!

btw,i feel like sleeping.
after i wake up from my "ugly" sleep,i shall be posting more stuffs.

someone booked me already to watch 8 weeks l8r.
okay lor,since its gonna be a treat,why not?
hahaha.

ya ya.whtv!im so tired!
time to focus&get on track.sch has just begun.

and tootlar,im now in year 2.
unbelievable!):

(:

2007-05-04T05:15:00.000-07:00

ive just finished my 8.30pm class.

oh hell yeah baybeh!ive moved on.tralalala! ;D
anyhoos, am happy.but i gotta start consuming CENTRUM soon.(:
to avoid being too sick.
wuakaka!

fatin has the same hobby as me. damn funny seh!

omg im gonna watch spiderman 3 tmr. WEE!
cannot wait sia.
too bad im not on a date.
hahaha but who cares?
enjoy with my friends! =P

heyhey i gtg! bubbye.

(:

2007-05-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

heyhey!(:

im freed from the turmoils of sadness.
the break up was sad,but i did wad was best.
i told him it stops dere&den.no more contacts,just a final gdbye.

it was a relieve.i'd rather not be friends with my ex because i knw
he will still be the same,if we were to get married one day.
who can tahan?you tell me lar.i doubt he'd do anything.

dat time i told him i had fever,he just replied like @ 2am.
nvr asked how i was or whatsoever.
pathetic.

but..my best friend
william
has always been there for me.
my poly classmates too!!

thanks so much people.
you rock my life!(:

and yeah, im MOVING ON!! :D

ps: one of my lecturers LOVE the show meet the robinsons. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! he's a joker man! hahah! love him a lot. (:

:)

2007-05-02T17:26:00.000-07:00

im having class now, doing vlan, kana-lan. haha. lame.

okay whtv.
ive got runny nose & soar throat today.
which rocks my day you know.

haha.

ate strepsils also no effect. -_-
MAKES IT EVEN WORSE IN FACT.

antibiotics ain't helping, i'm still sick. ):
as said by fatin:
cheapskate medicine.

haiz,could be true.haha.

for my birthday, buy me a set of antibiotics. ;D
the best birthday gift. HAHA!

oh wells,before i plan to share my "hingus" to everyone, i better go now.
take care!!

:)

2007-05-02T09:23:00.000-07:00

we will never know. people come & go..

but if God were to take my life away.
to all my dear readers out there. please read this.

it would be msg to all the people i've known.
anyone can go anytime.
i've done sins.
i've not fulfilled much of God's wishes but please..
read this letter.
and if it were to be in archive..
some help me retrieve this. & post this letter in the newspaper article.

i will pray for all the people i love to end up in heaven..
it may not be a guaranteed place for me.
but i'd like to share this place with everyone i love.
and to the people i don't know.

but have loved life as much as i have.
i wanna apologise to my sec school friends if i've bitched about anyone before.
i admit i do bitch once in a while..

i'm deeply very sorry. i wasn't matured. please forgive me..

to all my ateam friends. you all made me who i am today.. for making me mature & for showing me right from wrong...

to all my friends from nyp... my classmates. u guys have fulfilled my life's happiness...

to my family.. for always letting me hug u all.. & making me happy no matter how sad or angry i was.

to anyone whom i've been in a relationship with or whom i've dated before.. sorry if i was ever harsh or whatever.. i'm sorry.

to my work friends.. thx for always making me laugh. and for making my day worth it.

everyone who has enterd my life has made me happy.

forget the sad moments.

i love you all so much... forgive me for my sins. i know i've done bad things. i'm sorry.... really. i really love this world.. i really love life..

):

2007-05-01T17:14:00.000-07:00

we chose to be friends in the end.

oklar, at least we're not enemies.

fine enough.
(:

):

2007-04-30T18:14:00.000-07:00

so many commitments.

well,welcome to my life.
the break up wasnt an easy option for me to take.

cause i seriously loved this guy.
i really thought he was the one.
no,im still a virgin.
but the sad thing is..
he didnt stop me from asking fr a break.

yes,we are friends.
but WHY.
WHY didnt you stop us from breaking up?

imagine this.
the sea that has died.
the leaves that has withered.
the grasses that has turned brown.
that's my heart right now.

check out the vid. quite a sad song. (:

2007-04-29T17:48:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zuXh-Td8bwk

(:

2007-04-29T11:44:00.000-07:00

my life is gonna sail towards a diff direction as of tdy.

i am single & available.

but don't even think i'll ever fall in love again.
unless if you're a man with a heart that can truly love God, your family&me.

right now, neh, i don't believe in all those crap.
i just wanna have loads of friends!!
& enjoy life to the fullest.
accept challenges& just live life happily.

love only brings pain & sorrow.

but mother's love is different;

it's pure & true.
i'll stay true to my family instead.

(:they rock my life,in bad times&in good times.

):

2007-04-28T16:05:00.000-07:00

it's too late to turn back time nw.
slowly,these feelings for you are deteriorating.

you had your chance.
but you failed to seize it.

now,you're gonna face the consequences.
perhaps it is true that love is JUST a word.

and for my life,perhaps it stays that way.

yours truly,
faekah

perhaps i was too blind 2 see that all this while,
it wasn't true love.

i look at other couples &&
it left me thinking:

do you really love me?
or is it just a fling thing for you?

i think it's come to the time where
i sadly have to let you go.

(:

2007-04-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

yes arr. i totally shopped like mad today.

i bought a pair of shoes!!
and it's black.
i saw the ronaldhino shoes but too bad;
i'm not into ronaldhino & ERM, SOCCER!

ahaha.

anyhoos.wadever..i also got myself this HOT bag.
it's BLACK again.
so,i'm turning into woman in black part 1.

we malays call it ORANG MINYAK.

hahahaha. HOT STUFF.

okok, talking nuts ald. gave my bro $50.
i still have to buy my freaking sch bks on monday. shit lar.
so many things to pay. ):

HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT.
omg,nvm.

okaylah,i'm timing out.

yesterday which means on FRIDAY..
i had a VERY bad fever which elevated till 38 degrees.
can u believe that?
wow.. but Alhamdulillah.
i got thru it ;D

):

2007-04-26T09:22:00.000-07:00

sometimes, i choose to believe that

love is actually just a word.

cause recently, i found this saying which is very true:

i wish i found a man that can prove to me that they are all NOT the same.

)':

2007-04-24T02:26:00.000-07:00

i feel kinda bad.
my bf is now in not a good condition.

dearest syg,
i hope dat ull get well soon.

recommendations by rajes,fatin&liza:

to get mags & fruits.

i think i'll get the KFC cheesy meltz.
HAHA,sedap beb.

cause hospital food very the eww.
haha.

:P

okay,im so lapar now.liza, i wanna eat u!

my idol.(:

2007-04-22T18:16:00.000-07:00

i so wanna be like him..

one fine day.

it's not the same like it used to be.

it's really not me,it's you.

think about it.

there cud be a gdbye.

:)

2007-04-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

i wanna thank Allah for letting me face what i've been facing.

today,i'm gonna do some reflections on my life.
i will be reborn.
i wanna taubat..

too many sins.
too many lies.
too many deceits.
too many emotions.

faekah's life is about to change as of:

6am tomorrow.
i'll still love & enjoy.

that's life, i should be laughing&being strong.
dats wad i was at least.
i used to be VERY strong.
and somehow i crippled.

but thanks to ALLAH,FAMILY&FRIENDS.
i'm still moving on strong.

btw.i was molested tdy.
by a freaking GAY!!
for goodness sake. GAY!!
like hello? do i look like a male to you?
or should i say do i look like i sell
GORENG PISANGS?

URGH,perverts!!

i realize that my blog is booring.seriously!!
so let's add some juice.

in my cca, i belong to the house.
but i LOVE the people there.
tho we argue,have bad times,we're all united in one circle.

it's call LOVE.(;

weepee.

okay,i'm gila.SHUT UP!don't agree pls.

okaylah,i need to get smth done.
money's in the house!HAHA!

(;

2007-04-21T16:30:00.000-07:00

i wanna thank ALLAH
for these people:

SHREEN
RAJES
FATIN
JESU
NISA
ZACK

thank you so much for listening to my grumblings.
when i was on the verge of giving up in life.

i'm really thankful.
ALLAH was nice enough to give me people like you guys.

thing is GOD has selected the stronger ones
to face this HUGE amt of pain.

it's a test of our strength.
i have only ALLAH to thank for all the lovely people i have.